Songs In My Head

It is an acknowledged symptom that Aspies have songs in their head. That’s not a purely Aspie trait though…

For me:

  • the song is often one I don’t consciously like, for example a kids TV show theme
  • I listen to a lot of music, and I’ve never found a reason behind the songs that stick
  • since I’ve been aware of my Aspie traits, I’ve noticed that I often have several concurrent songs in my head, although obviously they don’t play over the top of each other – that would be schizophrenic. Right now I have Rockin Robin and a Depeche Mode song
  • at worst the songs are a little annoying, but for the most part they boost my spirit, and might even be the root cause for my happy nature
  • I sing in the shower. I don’t like my voice (and I’m incapable of singing in public) but I would sing in the shower regardless. I think I understand songs better than I can sing them

Music is numbers, and Aspies seem to be good with numbers. I think some Aspies can be artistic with music, although probably not performers.

Possible candidates:

Roy Orbison

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Sensitive to Hot Objects

This is the first entry in the category of Maybe Just Me.

There are many well-known symptoms, but quite likely there are many more that can only be discovered by Aspies sharing notes.

When it comes to picking up hot plates with my bare hands, my heat-pain-threshold is much lower than most people.

That’s it!

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Sporting Abilities

There are two aspects of this. This first affected me personally – Aspies are not good in a team environment. I am a good team player, and perhaps I try harder for the team than most – but from the team’s point of view I am not one of them as much as I should be. I don’t participate in rituals as readily – it took me years of adulthood before I would shower with my team mates, for example.

To advance in team sports you need to be social. It’s not a written requirement, but it is certainly an understanding. As a young adult I was the finest attacking rugby player (winger) in my region. Being an All Black wasn’t ever likely, but had I been more social, I could’ve played rep rugby.

My speed was obviously a physical inheritance. But there are plenty of top sprinters who can’t play rugby. When I was heading for a try line, and three opposition players were making a bee line to tackle me, somehow I always knew the paths to take and the moments to change direction. I always considered it to be instinct, but perhaps it is the sort of calculation suited to Aspies?

Defensively I was pretty useless. I didn’t care as much about spoiling someone else’s moment as deeply as I tried to win on the offense. I was slightly built, and the only time I considered joining the only local gym… well of course I didn’t achieve any more than peeking through the front door.

I spent years wondering why I wasn’t called up to play for my region – as if raw ability was the only criteria. I literally had no idea.

So I’m curious about the sporting abilities of Aspies. In everyday life I’m moderately clumsy. I bump into things, knock things over, fumble. I think, for me, it is a lack of care rather than inability. Because when it comes to catching a ball or side-stepping a speeding car I’m pretty good. I am unsteady walking but I’m close to perfect running…

Perhaps I have enough Aspy to be clumsy, but I’m enough not Aspy to be good at hand-eye and running sports? Yeah, I’m not a good example, not someone to use as an example. Is this similar…?

Jack, who has Asperger’s Syndrome, has been nominated for the award after producing a series of art pieces.

He only started painting portraits to help him overcome difficulties recognising facial expressions, a difficulty encountered by many people with Asperger’s Syndrome, but since then has earned a number of commissions, including designing a new sculpture outside his school after teachers recognised his talent.

The teenager is also a top rugby player, playing flanker for Cambridgeshire under 17s.

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My Asperger’s – A Self-Diagnosis

When I was a kid, nobody had heard of Asperger’s Syndrome. If they had, my brother would have been diagnosed with it, and he’d probably be better off today if he had. From an early age he chose not to speak outside the family home. This was especially problematic at school, but at least they tolerated his behaviour. He had/has many other classic symptoms, but it was only in recent years that I realised he had Asperger’s.

Then I read that sometimes family members can have some Aspy traits, as it is genetic, and I instantly realized that my other sibling, father and grandmother were all Aspys to some degree.

And I was as well.

Suddenly many of the things that didn’t make sense about me could be explained by a syndrome. Those that had bothered me the most include:

  • obsession with honesty, despite having a high imagination and an entrepreneurial streak – both useful for being a deceitful person…
  • incredible shyness in social and work situations, yet I’ve been on TV many times
  • inability to hear conversations when there is background noise
  • being intelligent but not in a traditional way, not easily pigeon-holed
  • a continual need to”download” whatever I am thinking to friends and family, even though I know they are not interested
  • an inability to complete what I start – sometimes I am in the middle of reading a dozen books at once

Now it all makes sense, and I’m finding it interesting exploring all the aspects of this syndrome. This site is all about symptoms – I’ll show what researchers have discovered, what other Aspys say, and add in lots of my own experiences.

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